Mike's Testimony

Reflection on how I started becoming what I maybe becoming... Anti porn and going after human trafficking..

Two years ago my now ex wife and I started the process of divorce. Now before her I would watch porn mildly.. I would never watch the hurt her as much as you can stuff... but I dont know if “normal” would be considered the right word but i'll go with it. Two decades ago I did addicted to roleplaying online and became distant from the girlfriend I had at the time. Today I have no clue why I would rather “type” when something real was right there.. stupid me.. but it goes to show you it is an addiction like alcohol or drugs.. even mildly.. in my head I didnt call it cheating cuz it was words.. but emotionally I was getting more distant..and more mean with my words with the girl I was with at the time. So sad.. so stupid of me.. She wisely broke up with me... Started dating the girl that would become my wife and stopped watching it all together..but my mind was already set that there is only one reason to be married.. If that was good I was good.. but I was distant and cold.. I wasn;t a terrible Husband.. but not there for her.. we divorced... So I sit there.. finally free of a woman.. In the ten years we were together (7 married) I never watched any naked scenes at all... even in movies.. but not I AM FREE.. go to wal mart... picked out a cheap movie that I loved as a kid and I knew had some “scenes” in it.. that was the reason... get home.. put the movie on.. the opening credits start and the still small voice inside me.. The Holy Spirit said really Mike?? do you really think God will reward you with a nice christian woman while you're watching this garbage.. I took out the dvd.. and tossed it in the trash.. wasted 5 bucks.. I made it a personal choice that yes I am single..but I know anything I do is cheating on the future woman God wants to give me. Even though I have no clue who she is yet.. and still don't.. but would God ruin a good woman's prayer for a good man to answer my prayer to give me a good woman while I was watching naked women.. I am pretty sure God doesn't answer prayers like that.. so I made it a personal choice that it was to stay out of my life. Stay away even from movies that you know will have a scene in them.. because Mike reformers unanamous (RUI) states LITTLE SINS LEAD TO BIG SINS.. YOU CAN NOT FIGHT A FLESHLY APPETITE BY INDULGING IN IT.. cuz once you get an appetite it grows and grows. So personal choice.. my own private choice..if anyone asked me why do you stay away from it.. because God wants me to and I want to honor him. “I will set no wicked thing before mine eyes." — Psalm 101:3

I do have daughters and one is now toddler.. and as a dad you want to protect her with everything you have. But I soon realized that I am not with her 24/7.. I get her every other weekend.. How am I supposed to protect her from the trash she is going to be faced with.

Then through my Celebrate recovery I see a woman named Jessica [former porn escort & recruiter] who is speaking out against porn.. and how it leads to human trafficking.. how it leads to young kids being forced into being rapped multiple times a day.. while someone else makes the money. Horizons church had a emphasis on child trafficking.. with the END IT MOVEMENT.. and a little spark started.. I didn't want to take one person's side of the story so I branched out and talked to other women who stated the same thing.. people who are forced into this lifestyle are treated as criminals and NOT AS VICTIMS..

I read about the Brock Turner case where the guy got only got three months for raping a unconscience woman and it burned me..

Then I heard about 2 bills that Jessica was fighting for and call your senators and state reps.. the two bills are sb 447.. the human trafficking /child exploitation protection act.. and sb29.. naming porn a national crisis..(if you're in another state those numbers will be different)

I have joined other facebook pages and the TRAFFICKING STORIES SCARE ME.. terrifies me.. how woman get trapped .. kidnapped.. little girls.. little boys.. anti porn facebook pages how its linking the popular violence in porn is spilling out into the real world..with more rapes.. women getting beaten.. child on child rapes.. adults raping children, infants.. how can it not rip your heart out... how can I ignore that?? Yes I am a man of God armed with the gospel of Jesus Christ and that desire to be quiet about the fact that unless you accept Jesus as your personal saviour and admit to him you are a sinner.. and call upon Him .. that is my ultimate goal.. but then I notice something missing.. THE CHURCH IS SILENT.. and I know I KNOW porn has infiltrated churches... church leaders.. college presidents.. I KNOW IT HAS HIT..I KNOW IT HAS TAKEN DOWN SOME.. yet it is a silent issue...?? WHY?? I've read Ken Hams book ALREADY GONE.. where research shows by middle school most kids have lost their faith in the Bible because of being taught evolution.. they are already gone.. the church has dropped the ball in teaching creation.. and it has caused an exodus of children leaving the church long before they turn 18... WHY ARE WE DROPPING THE BALL ON THIS ISSUE??? Why am I getting so passionate about this issue??? to not only save them from hell on earth.. but from an eternal hell... WHY IS THE CHURCH SO SILENT.. its just not one denomination either.. its not just teens.. its pastors.. its deacons.. its seasoned church men who have fallen into sick twisted sin.. YET STILL SILENCE... Not me.... So I get a letter back from a Senator saying 20.9 million are estimated to be trapped in trafficking.. and the senate DID NOT PASS A BILL TO PROTECT THEM.. why???? TO THE PUBLIC IN GENERAL IT IS NOT AN ISSUE... therefore it is not an issue for them... WOW... this issue is not about left..right.. republican.. democrats.. liberal.. conservatives... THIS IS ABOUT PEOPLE BEING SEX SLAVES... SLAVERY IS STILL RUNNING IN THE USA AND AS A WHOLE IS BEING KEPT QUIET.... So how can I keep it to myself?? how can I keep I wont watch porn as a personal choice when I know little kids can get a hold of it so easily.. and think thats what sex is... how can I keep quiet when I know it leads to men being violent with woman.. little girls!!Little boys!!! So my question is why aren't you doing the research yourself on this issue??? then tell me why are you still silent?? —Mike Amos

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