Donna's Testimony

This is an anonymous letter that I wanted to share. I think most woman can relate to it and I hope that it will make some boyfriends and husbands really think and make changes! Sadly, it is too late for this couple! I could not share the original post!

Dear boyfriend, We had been together 2 years now! That first date was magical and we had been together ever since! There was an instant attraction and we felt comfortable from the start! we shared the same thoughts and finished each others sentence! We laughed and cried together, we did silly things, we played in the snow and shared romantic walks on the beach. We enjoyed doing everything together from a nice dinner out, to cooking at home and snuggling on the sofa! The devastating part is your porn habit and related issues! You were honest from the start about your problem! I told you how much I was against it and showed you why and how bad it made me feel. You really seemed to be getting it, and I was seeing you as a person who not only wanted to be better but actually was! You chose me over your porn and our relationship grew stronger and the problems we were having in the intimacy department due to porn, not only got better but was amazing! Then you went through phases, questionable things would resurface every few months, sometimes you denied it at first or would say you didn't know what I was talking about, or you made excuses. There were other things from the start like an adult dating site that you said was hacked and suggesting we bring other people into our sex life! You always claimed you loved me! That is not love and you don't share the person that you love with someone else. You told me I made you feel safe! I wish I could say the same thing. You said I made you happy and you never felt more loved or in love. Again things kept resurfacing including pornographic video games that were pretty graphic and disgusting! You denied it! But then told me you would get rid of the games. There were a couple of times I had to walk away for my sanity, because the pain and anxiety you have been causing was unbearable! You always promised me you would make things right and would never hurt me again! You asked for my forgiveness and although very hard I forgave you! So here we are 2 years later! We had the best anniversary, it was a night to remember and I was so happy! Then you distanced yourself and I felt rejected for a few weeks! we got into a argument about it . A woman always senses things. You swore you weren't doing anything! I now know that you ordered a access key to the following site on 10/13/16 [website name censored for safety of others] which is a disgusting porn video game! You also reactivated your match dating membership on June 02, 2016. You have multiple emails that I asked you about and you denied. I also know about the emails from multiple woman that were deleted and were as recent as June of 2016 and obviously from an adult site, They were all looking for a good time and some had pictures attached. Then I discovered the many sick hard core porn sites that you subscribed to late last year and the many emails from woman from an adult site. That explains why you were so reluctant to show me your statements! Deep down I knew that was why, and then there was Wednesday night, you should have walked away! Have you forgotten my past black eye and other incidents? I know sometimes I don't know how to deal with the hurt and anger but that is no excuse to put your hands on me! I don't deserve that. You were so sorry and said it would never happen again. All of those things put a nail in the coffin of our relationship! So now instead of continuing to make plans for our happy future, I am mourning the loss of my best friend and lover and the better person I thought you were becoming. I let you into my kids' lives! for 2 years you have continued to hurt me, lie to me, and betray me! You should have just been honest with me! You can't have me, everyone else, and your filth too! Did you think you could get away with it? I will no longer allow you to continue to cause me so much pain, suffering and devastation. I can no longer try to fix you and the demands you are obviously still struggling with. I gave you all the love I had and that wasn't enough! So I am choosing to let go! I pray that if I am ever blessed to find a true healthy love and relationship that I will be able to let go of all the things that may hold me back from being hurt again! I also ask that if you are also blessed to find true love again to not hurt her like you did me! So you will probably say I gave up on you! It was actually you that gave up on us! You could not control your sickness! So I am saying goodbye to you JonoZon, Law Pro, or who ever the hell you are, because I sure don't know you!!!